Friday, May 27, 2011

New outlook

I wonder what Andy would think if he read this blog 10 years from now. Especially, if everything is "okay" with him. He would probably wonder why I worried so much, and why was I so sad for him all the time? When I look at him, he is happy. He doesn't know what he is missing out on. When I am sad, I am usually thinking too far into the future. Dreaming up sad scenarios that haven't even occurred yet. Or, I am constantly thinking of what he should be doing right now, and it hits me hard.

So, I have to reframe my thinking. Andy's physiatrist enforced this when we saw her yesterday. She told us we have to stop looking at the target, and celebrate his current accomplishments. I agree completely. There are things he can do now, that a year ago seemed never possible. He just turned two, and that was hard to swallow, but it is fading now.

He is a happy boy, so I should be happy for him. He has so much fun playing in his outdoor car toys, and electronic toys. He loves interacting with his sister, and music. Music makes him so happy, and is calming for him. He likes Lady Gaga and Black Eyed Peas! He finds happiness, even without movement. So, I will too.

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