Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Time for some changes

I hit another breaking point on Friday, and canceled all my son's physical therapy appointments. My son has gotten to know our therapy routine, and when its time to drive there, he cries the whole drive there. He knows where we're going, and he protests it. He often has to be calmed during the therapy visit, and it starts to feel like a waste of time to me.

I feel that my son can only handle 8-12 weeks of therapy at a time, and then he needs a break. This has also been noted in research articles that sometimes short bursts of therapy are more effective. My son seems as though he's had enough for a while, it's just a gut feeling I have.

On top of all of this, I have been feeling sad and depressed again about my son's lack of progress. I see other children in his class progressing, and they seemed to be able to do less than Andy in the beginning. This was true when he was in the 0-3 group as well. All the other kids would be advancing so much, but not my Andy.

I'm going to finally seek out a counselor now. Before my sadness completely overtakes me. My doctor gave me a recommendation, I just have to call them. I know what it feels like to be so far in the hole that it's hard to get out, and I'm halfway there. I can just be at the grocery store and start crying in the aisles because of my son. Or driving in the car, and start crying due to sadness about Andy. It's starting to affect my normal functioning. So, it's time.